I have issued Anneli with a RED STRIKE and a 2nd AMBER STRIKE for the following actions and behaviour in this thread:
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2nd AMBER STRIKE
Anneli received her first amber strike from myself a few weeks ago for "over-sharing" and attempting to pull others into her own emotional processing work (which is actually an addiction and forms part of her facade that she uses to help her avoid sincerely processing through her injuries).
Following Mary's initial response to Anneli's idea of a gift economy, it can be seen that Anneli responds to Mary in the same way that I warned her about a few weeks ago:
By reading the above part of Anneli's response, it can be seen that she did not understand what Mary was attempting to bring to her attention at all. The whole of the quote above has been made in facade, particularly the bit that I have edited in bold. To be truthful and blunt, Anneli has not made any sort of emotional release of grief/fear as of yet concerning this topic and is deluding herself with her comments.I went ahead after reading your feedback and asked God to help me see my wish to control my family, and found two belly twisting fears. One was like if I would not control my kids, it would be like putting them on a tiny wooden raft and push them out on the ocean on their own. The other one was like I needed to keep people at an armlengths distance, and steer their actions and behaviour with my attitude (with the jollyness, among other tools), or else they would transform into a herd of panicking buffaloos without any common sense, running down everything in their way (me). I found some grief at the bottom of these fears as well, but there is more in there still.
These fears have caused me to feel very superior to others, I've felt that I know better than others about life (because I am the one who needs to keep all the control over them, so I "logically had to" know more about them than they did, and what was the right thing to do , if I didn't want to face my fears). I also felt that my entire life has been about this need for control, and even more so after the babies were born. So I'm feeling kind of without a lot of my lifelong identity right now.
The releases I was helped to make now, were enough though to make me feel that I needed to change the form of the market in some ways. I'm still inviting people to the market, but now they are simply welcome to come and enjoy the market hours, sit down and have something to eat and drink if they wish, and bring gifts to the "gift pool", or the tables, if they wish. And they are equally welcome to choose what they wish or need from the tables that others have brought and gifted to whoever wants it.
Further to this, the amber strike I gave Anneli a few weeks ago about this very addiction of over-sharing and pulling others into her processing, she has not made any sincere progress on as she is still engaging in the very same behaviour only this time with Mary. I have also noticed it on a number of her other posts around the forum with others over the last couple of days. It is all well and good to acknowledge the feedback received on the forum using typed words saying that you "understand" however it becomes very clear and apparent to myself and others (particularly Mary & Jesus) whether or not you have actually begun working through the injuries when reading future posts that are made as the injury will still manifest itself through your words and the feelings coming from you in your posts. I feel this is important to note for anyone who receives feedback on the forums - it cannot be FAKED particularly if there are others on the forum who are sensitive to your emotions
RED STRIKE
In the same thread, David offered Anneli some feedback to her post whereby she openly asked people for their thoughts and opinions on her idea.
David posted in a kind and sincere way to try and offer some genuine assistance to Anneli. However, in response, Anneli projected anger/rage towards him as well as being arrogant and blaming of him. Again, as with the strikes issued to Jennifer B and Gabee, the same applies to Anneli. These strike threads can be found by following the below links:
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The above quote taken from Anneli's response shows her projection of anger/rage towards David as well as her blame of him to help distance herself from her own emotions that were triggered in the interaction. There is a common vein of arrogance on her part throughout her responses to both Mary (in feeling as though she understood Mary's feedback) and to David.your response felt a bit attacking almost, in the sense that I felt misunderstood and a bit judged. I have that injury as well, about feeling misunderstood and not really heard by the other person, so I knew I had to feel if this was the case with your response as well
In her latest post on the thread, Mary has provided a very thorough and in depth response to Anneli addressing all of the unloving behaviour.
All of this constitutes a RED STRIKE offence when relating back to the forum terms of use and shows a lack of humility and insincerity in tackling the injuries which have been brought to her attention on a number of occasions. Because of this unwillingness to deal with her injuries up until this point, the only option is to RED STRIKE her otherwise she will continue to act unlovingly towards other forum members.
I have emailed Anneli with the relevant threads to help her in her self-reflections.
Thanks
Nicky