Hello

[Christiana]

I'm Christiana, (56) and now live in Toowoomba Qld. I have 5 children (1 child in the spirit world - aborted) and 7 grand children.

I'm making changes in my relationship, location and work at the moment, which is showing me clearly that I'm not as loving or sincere as I thought I was. I've had a co-dependent relationship with my partner for almost 7 years and we are separating so we can hopefully address these issues, because we are not being loving to each other, more so me towards him. This is my fifth relationship, so I reckon its time to stop running from one person to another in addiction.

As a young child I loved spending time in the Australian bush and would sit in awe and marvel at the beauty of God's nature and flowers. And that still is the place I find I am happiest and most connected with God.

I met Jesus and Mary at the Secrets of the Universe in 2009 on the Gold Coast after I created a flower essence with spirits (I didn't know that at the time) and called it Divine Love. I had no idea of what Divine Love was and went in search of its real meaning. I fronted up to Jesus, in full dress of facade and arrogance demanding that he tell me all and I remember him telling me that these are the questions I need to direct to God.

I have tried to engage in the process of having a relationship with God but my multiple layers of facade, arrogance, resistance and addictions have been big stumbling blocks to make much progress. Although, I feel I have had some really beautiful moments with God and feel some faith that God loves me and is very patient. I feel I have made progress with reducing the level of self punishment. I can feel more sincere awareness to choose not to berate myself and be more compassionate.

I often get disappointed in the lack of my progress, but I know in my heart that the Divine Love Path is my best hope to find God's true version of me. I just hope it doesn't take me one hundred thousand years to become humble and surrender my control.

Anyway, thanks for creating this space.

Cheers, Christiana

[Nicky]

Hi Christiana

Welcome to the forums. I enjoyed reading your intro and find it cool how you were at the Secrets of The Universe talk in 2009 as this was the first ever DT video that I ever watched.

Nice to meet you.

Nicky

[Christiana]

Thanks Nicky

It was the best thing I have ever done! Like toothpaste, once the truth is squeezed out to the tube you just can't put it back.

Christiana

[Nicky]

Ha, nice analogy!