When I left my Amael facade, and start putting more light on my real soul condition thanks to Jesus and God, I felt like the supposedly spiritually evolved teacher I thought I was became a huge shit of unworthiness (words are not strong enough to express the depth of my feelings then). I felt to have to start my spiritual progression from scratch again. All the spirit influenced part of me was just a big illusion about me. And it was the best thing that could happen then to me - i did not feel to then
- , to start finally to open a little bit to my real damaged soul condition. I so learned that it is only from a place truth that real change and healing can occur. And you know what? You have he right to explore and even be unloving in your choice with others in acting from this new confusing place, and you can always correct afterwards if you want. God does not ask you to be perfect all at one. It is in fact actually impossible. And if you do about you, you are unloving to yourself in the first place. So why would you expect that form yourselves? is another thing to explore.
Yes, there is also a lot of available help from your guides and God if you desire to in this very humbling place you feel in. Actually, this is the best to have their loving help, when we know we don't know. It is so overwhelmingly beautiful.
Cheers,
Pierre
