Howdy
Posted: Wed Aug 26, 2015 9:08 pm
Hello all ... My name is Scott. I live in the U.S and have just turned 52. I am married for the 4th time and have 6 kids and 1 & 1/2 grandchildren. I graduated with a B.S in Sociology/Psychology back when I could remember dates, but no longer working in the field as I found myself full of B.S. Not sure how to really introduce myself ... as I feel I don't know who that is at all. But ... I can tell you a little about where I am presently.
I came across A.J about a year and half ago ... when he stood out in a line-up of other Jesus's who had uploaded themselves via YouTube. Funny, I thought ... he looks a little like Jesus, but without trying to look like Jesus. I am very thankful that my first exposure was actually a very biased interview about him ... it stirred within me a desire to find another one that would not try to do my thinking for me. And although that next video was a radio interview that did little more than throw it's own sensationalized stones ... it connected me to some of his lecture videos that allowed me to explore in greater depth the actual message he was attempting to share. I can say that I had at least a mustard seed of faith in A.J from the get-go ... seemed like an ideal time for Jesus to show up and we didn't recognize him right off the first time either. Since being on the path ... my law of attraction feels like it bursts onto every scene ... revved into overdrive and lurching towards me. The success rate for getting my addictions met have severely plummeted ... all after finally getting good at it. The invisibles ... no longer are content to rap on windows or make footsteps down hallways ... they are getting much more involved with me personally ... yanking me from sleep when I need it and putting me to sleep when involved with the DLP. It has gotten quite crazy ... I can hardly use a computer now, without direct interference from them. I am no victim though, although feeling quite victimized right now. Although all of this has its positive ... I am feeling motivated and encouraged at times as well. I have been gaining some understanding that may be expanding my self awareness ... though I cannot be sure of this as I am still reluctant to confirm my thoughts by releasing feels. My facade is slowly peeling as well ( I can tell because the exposure is making me quite sensitive to my surroundings ). My self reliant tendency is still keeping tabs on everything however and upholding the block to God. I do speak with him/her now ... and I am sincere in that expression. Still not looking for help just yet ... as he scares me. I don't trust God enough to yield to the overwhelm ... I want my finger near the ON/Off button. But my circles do seem concentric and I can say I am closing in on the DLP ... ever closer to leaping before I look. Thank you for the gift of this forum Nicky. I hope that the opportunity that has been created will be utilized in the best way possible for my soul.
I came across A.J about a year and half ago ... when he stood out in a line-up of other Jesus's who had uploaded themselves via YouTube. Funny, I thought ... he looks a little like Jesus, but without trying to look like Jesus. I am very thankful that my first exposure was actually a very biased interview about him ... it stirred within me a desire to find another one that would not try to do my thinking for me. And although that next video was a radio interview that did little more than throw it's own sensationalized stones ... it connected me to some of his lecture videos that allowed me to explore in greater depth the actual message he was attempting to share. I can say that I had at least a mustard seed of faith in A.J from the get-go ... seemed like an ideal time for Jesus to show up and we didn't recognize him right off the first time either. Since being on the path ... my law of attraction feels like it bursts onto every scene ... revved into overdrive and lurching towards me. The success rate for getting my addictions met have severely plummeted ... all after finally getting good at it. The invisibles ... no longer are content to rap on windows or make footsteps down hallways ... they are getting much more involved with me personally ... yanking me from sleep when I need it and putting me to sleep when involved with the DLP. It has gotten quite crazy ... I can hardly use a computer now, without direct interference from them. I am no victim though, although feeling quite victimized right now. Although all of this has its positive ... I am feeling motivated and encouraged at times as well. I have been gaining some understanding that may be expanding my self awareness ... though I cannot be sure of this as I am still reluctant to confirm my thoughts by releasing feels. My facade is slowly peeling as well ( I can tell because the exposure is making me quite sensitive to my surroundings ). My self reliant tendency is still keeping tabs on everything however and upholding the block to God. I do speak with him/her now ... and I am sincere in that expression. Still not looking for help just yet ... as he scares me. I don't trust God enough to yield to the overwhelm ... I want my finger near the ON/Off button. But my circles do seem concentric and I can say I am closing in on the DLP ... ever closer to leaping before I look. Thank you for the gift of this forum Nicky. I hope that the opportunity that has been created will be utilized in the best way possible for my soul.
