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Hi,

I have some experiences I feel that spirits might be the cause of, but i deny it as the cause and so i don't feel it...

The experience is something i am embarrassed and ashamed about and not sure if i want to share in detail here but it involved constant nightmares and spirit attack as a child, wetting the bed and sleeping on top of the stairs most nights and when i did what they wanted the nightmares and attack stopped and i wasn't afraid of them anymore, it involves giving sexual energy to them and they gave me a feeling of being worthy of some form of addictive love and turned into a barter system but i was so relieved the attack stopped i have never wanted to reface the experiences and to this day i still send out sexual energy to everyone especially men when i am afraid, but recently i noticed how much i sexually project at everyone when i am scared in hopes to avoid attack especially with men and sometimes now also with women and i know this now to be wrong and it feels icky. I don't have any experiences before the barter took place with men sexually abusing me and so i cant say it was someone physical that is the cause. My mother has never had this issue as far as i am aware and my father left when i was a baby. My brother did try to have sex with me when i was about 5 but i feel he was influenced by these male spirits too and don't know if i can hold him as the cause either. So my question is can these male spirits from my childhood actually create an injury and be the cause? Or does it always go back to a family member or family generational injury?

I find it hard to allow myself to get into the feelings thinking i am blaming them for a soul injury they didn't create. I have fear i am resistive to feeling too.

Any assistance would be gratefully received.

Laura B x

Hi Laura,
I do not have any personal experience with what you are describing here so I am not sure how helpful I may be. However, a couple of things stand out for me.

You asked "So my question is can these male spirits from my childhood actually create an injury and be the cause? Or does it always go back to a family member or family generational injury?"

My understanding is that whatever happens to us is a Law of Attraction event. If the event occurs in our childhood it is likely to be a LoA relating to our parent's denied emotions. The root cause may well be generational but I have found it most helpful to deal with whatever is closest. In this case it would be your parents.

You said -
"My brother did try to have sex with me when i was about 5 but i feel he was influenced by these male spirits too and don't know if i can hold him as the cause either".

To me this indicates that the influence is being attracted from your father's unhealed emotions around sex and sexual abuse. There is likely to be unhealed emotions from your mother around the allowance of sexual dominance by men? Quite likely your brother was under spirit influence at the time due to his unhealed emotions (which may have come from either your mother or your father). does any of this feel right to you?

When I am dealing with challenging and difficult emotions I always find it helpful to firstly pray. Ask God to show you the truth. This is the first step.
Next is to breathe deeply into the diaphragm and try to get out of your head and into your body (I find this very challenging most of the time as I am still very mind dominant)

Allow yourself to feel whatever comes up - be gentle with yourself. Pray for protection and guidance and Love through this process.

My guides have shown me that if I am processing emotions and feel that I am not moving through the emotion, breathing is the key. If I breathe deeply into the diaphragm while feeling the emotion and the emotion dissipates then I am not feeling my emotion. I then stop. Feel. Talk to whoever is with me as lovingly as possible and ask them to leave. Always pray for guidance and protection throughout this process. If the emotion is mine the diaphragmatic breathing will take me deeper into the emotion. I am then able to receive truth in the form of new realizations about myself, my life and the emotion. If I am not receiving truth then I know I am in facade and wasting my time. Here I need to be honest with myself that I do not want to feel the emotion or the truth. I pray to God to show me why that is - why do I not want to know the truth and how can I overcome the blocks to truth?

With regard to fear - I have found that the best way to deal with fear is to confront it head on - to step into the thing that I am most afraid of (if I am brave enough). Perhaps some movies around spirit influence might be helpful for you to trigger these fears eg. The Exorcist. The Exorcism of Emily Rose. Etc. Vanilla Sky might also be helpful as might The Accused and Precious.

I hope this is helpful. good Luck and remember to pray for God's Love and Truth throughout your processing.

love

Linda

Dear Linda,

Thank you, that is very helpful for me, there are lots of things you have said that have touched things for me to look more sincerely at in myself I want to digest what you have said more, but I wanted to thank you too and that i appreciate your advice so just came on to say that.

Best wishes,

Laura B