Hello from Stockholm

[Joakim]

Hi everyone!

My name is Joakim and I live in Stockholm, Sweden, where I was also born some 39 years ago now

Thank you Nicky for the opportunity to share on this forum!

I am very happy to have "re-discovered" divine truth teachings after a few years away from them. Some years ago (4-5?) I watched probably hundreds of hours of material and it was all very interesting to say the least . I want to thank Mary and Jesus for again appearing on my Youtube feed so that I can look at this once more. This time, it feels a little different. I feel more ready, and also more blessed.

I have searched for a long time it feels like, and from all the ideas and answers I got, one thing always seemed to be missing. I never really changed, inside. It all felt mental, intellectual. Nice concepts and ideas and explanations and so on, but in the end it felt mostly bla bla bla. Don't get me wrong, I love exploring ideas and I am happy about what I found, but more important was the changing of the heart. How do you really change? I was becoming aware of my issues, my fears, and what I now would call my addictions, etc, but fell short of doing anything about them long term. People complimented me about my self awareness sometimes, and that is all very nice of them, but I was not looking for a pad on the back, but real change.

I am for example dealing with suppressed anger in certain situations, and if I understand Jesus correct this is covering some fears, and a sadness that I am not really aware of right now. I was taught to be fearful. This was not intentional by my mother (God bless you mom wherever you are), we miss you, but it had a big impact on my life. I was also ridiculed and bullied when I was younger. This left a big scar.

So there is a lot of fear and a lot of facade but I will not go too deep into it at the moment since this is an introduction I guess

I want to also specifically thank Jesus and Mary (if they read this) for the medium sessions. I very much enjoy this kind of video and it is very very helpful to watch. And it is beautiful to see Jesus help these spirits with Mary's assistance. It strengthens my belief in Jesus and what he is sharing. I cannot see this world myself, but I wish I could see these bright spirits and locations. Or feel them.

Anyway, from a snowy Stockholm, I wish you all well brothers and sisters.

[Nicky]

Hi Joakim

Welcome to the forum.

You wrote:

I was taught to be fearful. This was not intentional by my mother (God bless you mom wherever you are), we miss you, but it had a big impact on my life. I was also ridiculed and bullied when I was younger.

The exact same happened to me too. The only difference is that I have since realised that my mother intentionally projected all of her fear out onto me when I was younger as a result of her free will choice to do this, which has affected me negatively for the majority of my life. The truth of this situation opened me up to a lot sadness. Maybe you will find this is the case for you some time in the future too.

Nice to meet you and I hope you find your time here beneficial.

Nicky

[Joakim]

Hey Nicky. Nice to hear from you.

Thank you for the welcome. I can only imagine what that discovery must have been like. A lot of sadness. You may be right that I will find out something similar in the future. I am open to it if that is the truth. I guess I will find out. It did do some damage and I need to work through my fears regardless. The underlying sadness I have yet to discover. I did have some anger about it roughly 20 years ago. For a short time I blamed my parents for the person I had become that I did not like or want to be.

How do you feel about it now if I may ask? And if you released it, did you notice something different inside of you?

Cheers,
Joakim.

[Joakim]

...I'd just like to add if anyone is in my neighberhood-ish please feel free to contact me and maybe we can meet and have a chat! I am also on Skype for anyone who just want to talk.

Joakim

[Nicky]

Hi Joakim

In answer to your question, I have yet to fully go through the forgiveness process with my mother as I still have sadness within me that I have yet to release. Once I fully feel the grief/sadness about the relationship, then I will be in a place in my heart where I have fully forgiven her - this will be the same process that everyone will go through, should they wish to and it does take time, it's not instant.

However, since feeling the varying sadnesses within me, I have found that a number of my addictions that I had with women have disappeared. The main one being placating them (to avoid their disapproval, anger etc). There is a great sense of freedom you feel when this occurs.

Also, have you seen this?:

Please do not give out any personal information (contact details e.g. phone number, email) publicly in any of your posts. You are free to do this privately via the forum private messaging function. This added feature is granted once you make 10 posts.

Furthermore, if you would like to arrange meet up's in person, this must be done privately rather than on the boards themselves

I have removed what I believe may have been your Skype username from your latest post as this breaches the terms of use (if it was not, apologies, I have just decided to act now in case it was).

Thanks
Nicky

[Anita]

Hi Joakim, nice to meet you.
I live in Sala - not far from Stockholm.
I discovered Divine Truth 4,5 years ago. But it is not until recently I've started to get more of an emotional understanding of the teachings and applying them more consistently. I have been doing some translations too.
Välkommen to the forum.

Cheers
Anita

[Joakim]

Hello Nicky.

Thank you very much for sharing. I appreciate that. It seems you are well on your way, and you already felt changes. You really got me thinking about intention you mentioned earlier. I will pray and see what happens. I just started this process.

I am very sorry but somehow I missed reading your welcome announcement on the introduce myself section. I don't know why that happened but I think I was too excited to look around properly before introducing myself. I don't however think I wrote any contact information in any post so I am not really sure what you deleted . But please remove anything you feel doesn't fit! Or the whole post for that matter. I have read your announcement now. Can I ask about the contact section of the profile though? I see there are places for facebook and skype and other social media there. Are those ok to fill out now or later when you reach 10 posts or are they not visible to other members or not to be used at all? I'm sorry I am still a little confused about that part.

Alright. Again, sorry for missing your announcement!
/Joakim

[Joakim]

Hello Anita.

Nice to hear from you. Thank you for the welcome.

I have fond memories of Sala, and some sad ones. It is a mixed bag of emotions since I had a longer relationship with a girl from there. Actually it was a little bit outside of Sala in a tiny place called Salbohed if you know it? I passed through Sala everytime I drove there. And once we went down into the Sala silver-mine. Now that was a dark place!

Great that your emotional understanding is increasing. I feel this is what I need to work on too. Was prayer the key to more understanding for you?

[Nicky]

Hi Joakim

You asked:

Can I ask about the contact section of the profile though? I see there are places for facebook and skype and other social media there. Are those ok to fill out now or later when you reach 10 posts or are they not visible to other members or not to be used at all? I'm sorry I am still a little confused about that part.

Yep, these are OK to fill in whenever you'd like if you wanted to share these details as these parts of your profile cannot be viewed/seen by guests of the forum. Any personal details completed in your profile are only visible to current registered forum members.

Once you reach 10 posts, you can send private messages to other forum members - this is how you can exchange any personal contact information with other forum members if you'd like to talk to one another away from the forum.

Cheers
Nicky

[Anita]

Hi Joakim,

Joakim:
Great that your emotional understanding is increasing. I feel this is what I need to work on too. Was prayer the key to more understanding for you?

Yes, prayer, a desire to be more sincere. I signed up for two of the Assistance Grp seminars. And then I realized that I needed to be more sincere otherwise I'd go there and attend in my current state which would not be so successful.
But I feel I have only got a very very small portion of it so far. I'll put it in my introduction in more detail later on.

Today though I feel really crappy and feel that I can't do this. It's too much