Just Be True
Arrogance, believing I know
What it means to be honest with myself
Simple words I have never understood
There is no argument
Shame, a just penalty for such a transgression
24 years spent fumbling around in the darkness,
12 years purposefully walking into the abyss
Fighting for my false self,
The most damage I have caused unto others and myself
Altogether, 36 years travelling in the wrong direction
36 years too long.
Through these long years
The natural consequences of pain and suffering
Have made me malleable
The Creator of the Universe, and of me
All of this Truth You have
Yet I have closed my ear to You
You will never Break the Great Gift of Free Will
This is what You have been teaching me
You have been patient
I do not deserve it
Surely, there is no way you would forsake me
Now that I call upon you from the wilderness
In my moment of strife, to take me under your wing
Along with Your Angels
And guide me home
My Sin is no secret
It has been laid out on display for all to see
My mouth, as large as the Grand Canyon
Help me use it to not boast of any earthly accomplishment
For they are meaningless
But shout about my weaknesses instead
I pray you open my ears, eyes and heart to Your Truth about me,
How I am this very moment
Just Be True,
Like a dog with a bone, to never let up
Until the illusion is shed completely
The penalty is high, the list is long
Yet through my contrite spirit
May it appeal to Your unending Mercies
Until Your Truth sets me free
In any which crevice there may be within my soul
May Your Love find lodgement
Until that which is offensive to you
Every false belief, every anger, fear, grief
Ceases to exist
Everything you provide will be sufficient
May I believe it with all my heart
And may You hear this
One of my first prayers
And definitely not my last
Glacier National Park – Montana. Credit: Matt Anderson